*sighs* I seriously cannot believe how scarce my activity is here. I keep telling you all that I'll return and post art, but...that never happens, right? I feel extremely bad that I continue to put off my time here. It's just that real life is very stressful, and so is dA life. I've had many problems with dA in the past, and that was the main reason why I made this new account.
Even though I've been on this new account for two years, it still doesn't...feel right. This may be my anxiety talking now, but sometimes (most of the time actually) I feel like everyone is poorly judging me. Don't take this the wrong way, please, it's just me speaking out...which is difficult for me to do.
Updates on me:
- Recently been bullied
- Recently had a rumor spread about me
- Recently had a panic attack
- Not seen a psychotherapist in about...4 months now?
- Nevertheless, earning good marks in school
- Attending my third year in community college, first year of university, and my junior year (11th grade) of high school. (It's a dual enrollment process; complicated to explain... )
- Preparing for my SATs and ACTs this year
- Deciding which official university I want to attend (not dual enroll)
- Taking my filming aspiration to the next level
People always say bullying is wrong, sinful, and disgusting. Does that stop it from occurring though? Sometimes, perhaps it does. But, in my case, no. No it does not.
I'm not going to go into greater detail, but it's simply stereotypical: I'm a nerd. End of story.
Onto a more positive note, I really want to communicate with you all once more. I really missed you! I feel like I should've visited, even in my time of darkness. You guys are here for me right? Can I trust you guys?
Most of you have been with me since my first year here... and I've been here for what three years or something? (according to my original account). Wow. You guys deserve a huge hug.
I don't deserve such amazing people in my life.
I'm going to keep this short, only because it's 09:39pm as I'm writing this and I'm exhausted. I'll post a better update journal at some point. I have so many notes and messages to go through, but I WILL respond to those who comment on this journal as soon as I can.
Just for conversing purposes.
Anywho I better stop talking now before I start typing another essay.
Miss you guys!
Thanks for Reading~! MissParisBoo